Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Here We Clo Again

As I've shared, I went on birth control when I was 15 because of my horrendously horrendous cramps. When I think back to the dramatic scene I would cause once a month - rolling around on the floor, crying, throwing up - I cringe with embarrassment. Because they couldn't have been THAT bad.

Oh yes. They could.

Know why I know? Because they came back last night after a nearly 14-year hiatus.

When I last left you on Saturday, I was all goody-goody-gumdrops over my progesterone level of 24. I went to a wedding on Saturday night and didn't drink a drop (ok, maybe a drop, but not even half a glass). I began calculating my due date. I Googled baby boy names (because of course I already have my girl name picked out).

And then. The cramps.

They hit me like a punch in the gut. For one good hour last night, I screamed and cried in pain, dry-heaved and basically had a huge meltdown. At first BumpMister looked at me like my head was spinning. Then he panicked and wanted to take me to the ER.

Then he called my mom. Yes, my mom, who assured him that this was normal (well, normal for the 15-year-old version of me) and to simply wait it out.

BumpMommy was right, and after an hour I was snuggled on the couch eating pistachio ice cream and wiping mascara streams off my cheeks. But when the cramps stopped, something even more horrenously horrendous started. My period.

Which brings me to today...

...and my third round of Clomid.

...and the message from Dr. Obigeewyan that ominously said, "I'm going to give you one more prescription, and if you don't get pregnant this month, I'm referring you to a reproductive specialist."

So here we Clo again.


  1. HUGS!!! I hope it works for you this time!!! BABY DUST!

  2. Oh man, what a nnight for you. Suck! Hoping for the best for you. Fingers crossed!

  3. Hi - I came across your blog and I thoroughly enjoy your witty sense of humor. I too am dealing with infertility and have been trying to conceive for over 5 years. Your extreme cramps are raising a red flag to me. Have you ever been checked for fibroids?? I have fibroids and have to have them surgically removed next Friday. They cause extreme cramping and heavy periods. Just a thought... I wish you the best of luck!!

  4. Thanks girlies! K8tie - actually know nothing about fibroids. About to do me some research on that; thanks!

  5. As if getting your period wasn't bad enough. And by the way, I too used to have really bad cramps, and I think they've been worse since I've been on Clomid...

  6. Johanna - Really? Ugh I can't take another month of those cramps. I swear, giving birth CAN'T be worse :)